So I write alot and I never ever share it but I’ve come so far since I wrote this that I think I’m ready :) I hope you like it !

Why am I ashamed?

Black is beautiful right? The darker the berry The sweeter the juice!? …yea right I’m a deep dark shade of brown So I become the source of the jokes at night

I laugh to cover the pain Only cry when I stand in the rain Never let anyone see the stains And yet inside I’m wondering Why am I ashamed?

Hate going shopping with my friends The only one wearing over a size ten Refuse trying on clothes cuz It always looks better on them I hear the voices of the confident curvy ones That came before me But I do not see the beauty that they see

&still I laugh to blanket my pain Only cry standin in the middle of rain Never EVER let anyone see the stains God, why am I ashamed?

My confidence comes from my education Yes I’m proud of my proper dialect But in everyday life That is not what gets respect I hold my head hi because of The strength in my faith And I stand strong My foundations built on Gods grace And Although it does not seem important To the “teenAge race” I will continue to grow at this pace

I will find beauty in Blending with the night sky Confidently try on clothes Without disappointment in my eyes Stand in front of a crowd Knowin that they love what they see Because behind my smile I’ll be completely loving me

…but until then I will laugh to cover my pain … ONLY cry when it can be disguised By the drops of the rain …. Crack a smile to cover my stains

And soon I will break free of These shackles of shame…